I can't really talk about most of what is bothering me, but every time I start feeling like maybe I have a better handle on things in life. Life makes it absolutely clear I'm not even in the right league. This may be the last time I do many things. Not worth the emotional trauma.
Posting for my own benefit, a dream I had yesterday. Carol and I are watching a video on television. The music playing is Alex Clare's song "To Close". But it didn't have Alex in the video. I seem to have matched up the music with perhaps a Timberlake video but no Justin either. The video was black and white and had a man in a sleeveless tuxedo and no shirt underneath. So you see the man's arms and some of his chest. The man was heavily tattooed, but tattooed in an old-fashioned way. I think of the tattoos being sailor type tattoos. Anchors and hearts and the massive ships on the ocean. The tattoos are fuzzy and badly drawn.
So I start criticizing the tattoos and as I badmouth them Carol says to me, "Well you're one to talk, yours are exactly alike." With that I look down at myself and I do have tattoos almost exactly like the guy in the video. I look up to Carol and say: "Well, you're right, but I wear my tattoos ironically."
Last weekend I attended another FOGcon 4 committee meeting. Things seem to be chugging along. Eli Bishop is contributing his talents towards our program book cover this year. We got our first chance to look at it Saturday. It's beautiful take a look, here.
Does everyone knows I'm Chairing FOGcon 4 this year. We just reached a big milestone. Program sign-ups are live! Remember, the convention is coming soon we only have about eight weeks till March 7. You have until February 21 to buy a membership online. After that you must buy your membership at the door. Once you by your membership you can go through the programming sign-up. You can tell is what program you'd be interested in participating in or just let us know what programming looks good to you. I hope to see at least some of you in Walnut Creek this March.
I've been having a rough time lately, but managed to get out of my house yesterday to see my therapist (the first time in weeks and weeks). I've been feeling a little weak, so instead of schlepping from Telegraph all the way to Tuk-Tuk Thai Cafe on Shattuck (as is our custom). I decided to try this new place on Telegraph near my therapist Rangoon Superstars. loracs and I over ordered as we tend to do at a new restaurant.
We both just loved the place. I can't remember what soup we had, but it had like a potato dumpling in it. On the spicy side for me, but I'm a wimp and I still liked it. We had salt and pepper calamari which was amazingly tender. loracs loved the jalapenos that went with it. I was able to eat around the jalapenos and enjoyed the appetizer quite a bit. I had some garlic noodles with duck. She had a shrimp dish. I discovered a new favorite drink: Burmese Milk Tea.
I was happy to run into serene as she walked home from work. Lots of vegetarian options probably several vegan ones as well.
Tags: carol, food, serene Current Location:My Study Current Mood: cranky Current Music: "Next Time That You Leave", Bob Mould
Last night, almost 24 hours ago I passed out. loracs and I were coming back from a movie after having eaten Thanksgiving dinner. I had some gastric distress and felt pretty tired. ( Read more...Collapse )
My morning attendant gave her two week notice Tuesday. I haven't had to look for new workers much in my life. I tend to hang on to the ones I hire and often before they leave my employment they have another family member or friend who wants the job. To me this is nice for stability sake, but he does make me feel like whatever abilities I need to interview and higher a new worker atrophy before I need to use them. So here I am in the unusual position of needing to higher a new person. In the old days there used to be an informal network of people with disabilities who knew who was looking for work or needed more hours etc. etc. ( Read more...Collapse )